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ABIGAIL CONTINUED.......
F: I suppose you could start again?
A: Yes I’ve been to earth before and I have come back and actually this is 2nd seeding, so I’ve come back again, I have volunteered again to go back.
F: Why did you want to do that?
A: Because of love and because I know that I’m safe and I’m testing myself actually, this is a big test for me, I’ve gone to Earth before and I’ve come back out and I’ve ascended back into Source and I’ve come back out again. This is the second time I’ve come out of Source and I’ve done it out of love and also to almost test myself of 'do I really believe in that love, can I really trust that Source will bring me home again' because I know that it was not dangerous but a risky mission for me to go because I knew I would forget everything and I’ve got a huge amount of knowledge. I’ve been around for a really long time so this was like a lot to gamble with here because there was a chance that I could have gone back and fallen for whatever reason and made choices that meant that I couldn’t ever get back. I was putting all of that on the table and still standing in love and saying no I still ... I love Source so much that I’ll go back. I also had lots of keys or energy or information somehow inside me but still done out of love and trust. Also the part of me that has been out in that density down into Earth also recognises, I suppose, that I’ve been around for so long, it's … time from that place doesn’t feel the same as it does when you are on Earth. I can’t explain it but it’s irrelevant somehow.
F: So what about the Karma, the Karmas carried over from each life, when you come away from Earth life that carries on. So can you say anything about the Karma now you are seeing it from a different perspective? Is it actually Karma, I know it is just valuable lessons …
A: It's light. It's the free will choices you make determine whether you build light or you shed light. The more you can choose to work with the forces of the universe which are loving, creative and expansive the more you will be in the throw of that. If you keep choosing against it you can't carry as much light and so you get bogged down in that density.
F: That makes sense yes. OK I want to get you back to where you were in this formation and you are passing the knowledge on. You are with the Yanas now ... I want you to describe what’s happening.
A: They are embracing us energetically. We went out there to try to prove something or to ask permission somehow and we had to do this challenge somehow - it has taken actually all of us to... that's a really big job, we have all had to try to assemble all these different parts of ourselves back into something cohesive. To move up through these … to come back to the Yanas and it's like a collective effort. It's almost like I was the last one so it’s almost like I was holding the door open for everything else to come through the last bit, I've had to jump through myself, I was holding it somehow. So the Yanas are just, they’re not.. it's a force, they are not in any way individual bodies, it's a huge sort of cloud of consciousness somehow that takes … sometimes it shivers into flames like forms with eyes sometimes you can see … not eyes you can see physically but you can see that you are being looked at.
F: So the flames you say are almost like plasma...
A: The building we are in is plasma, these are beyond that, they are beyond any.... They’re not pure … they are pure light beings. They laugh when I say that.
F: What do they want to be known as?
A: They are the Yanas, they are a collective they are either at the top or just out of this time matrix, really funny, everyone is really funny, there’s a lot of good humour here.
F: Good. How tall are they, can you see?
A: The Yanas?
F: Yes.
A: They are not in body.
F: But the flame that you see is it like an orb sort of thing?
A: No they are tall like flame-like bodies but they just flicker in and out in and out, they are distinct one moment. It's almost like if you focus in on them, and you want them too, they can almost come forward into slightly more of a flame form and then they just meld back in. They can choose to take form, they are completely capable of all of those things. They are laughing again at me, they’re like “yes we can do that”. They chose not to, they live in, just in being-ness. They can take form but they rarely ... they do sometimes to reassure people if necessary but they don’t live in form, they are way out of the body, they're just much more pure consciousness than embodied. They are laughing at my explanation.
F: Ok so tell me what’s happening now.
A: We’ve achieved something fantastic. It’s something significant for us and maybe for this collective that I have come from which is significant.
F: Is this something to do with Earth and putting that …
A: Yes.
F: OK.
A: It’s something that we did in 2nd seeding. But this is 3rd seeding, we're ... that you and I are sat in this room now, this is 3rd seeding, but it is almost like I can perceive a lot of different types of time now I am out of that, up here.
F So the 2nd seeding, did that work all right? Why are we having a 3rd seeding?
A: No, it failed but this is why I think it is significant. I left something open.
F: Can you explain a bit more about that? What was left open and why? What happened?
A: Physically it’s in these very, very high mountains and it’s in the pool of water with these crystals, but that’s like the 3D form of it. Behind this is this reality field or this portal. It's like a portal space and I’ve managed to keep it open but have concealed it somehow. When I go back and think about it the rock cave has been covered over by a rockfall or something has happened so that’s there now but it would be very difficult for people to find it. But it’s still open, and again, it links into this site at the Antarctic, I'm feeling it’s the Antarctic at the south of the planet and it's ... yes...
F: So is that a good thing that you’ve blocked it?
A: Yes. It's there for the next time so that is something, I think I had to get out of that 2nd seeding. Somehow I’ve managed to get out and I knew in that body that there was something that I, something about me, knew that that cave was there, and it was either as a myth or story that I’d heard, but I believed in it and sure enough eventually I found it and that was why I was so happy. Basically I have left this bit open because I’ve had to get out, I’ve had to evacuate.
F: Let’s just go back to where you were with the Yanas, let’s go back there and then I want you to travel back to earth from there and you're with Sha-Rhyn.
A: Oh God he's laughing 'Oh God not again I've got to go back'. I feel slightly more reassured this time though but I know I'll forget this reassurance as soon as I get down there though, I know what I'm letting myself in for. All this will be forgotten in an instant I think as soon as I get back down there.
F: So are you going through the Portal now?
A: Take a deep breath before I deal with this. Yes there's still work to be done - there's something niggly I need to fix.
F: Do you know what that is?
A: Yes while I was there before in this body I was always searching for something that I couldn't see but that I knew was there....questing and now I'm going back to try to hold both being in the body and this time lineage. So I'm going to see if I can come through with abit more of this knowledge intact and seed it into the 3rd seeding sort of phase. I'm coming back with a bit more conscious information this time - I'm abit more awake, and its abit more than just a sense that I'm looking for something - it's stronger this time.
Abigail travels back through the Portal and goes straight into a second life as a little girl
F: So describe to me what's happening.
A: Oh it's horrible, I've come down and I can feel like I'm in a car crash and I've hit something dense and I'm feeling knocked out and bruised and crying like a baby....bawling and I'm....uurrgghhh feel absolutely heavy and just like uurrgghhh this body - this sluggish.... made out of like sort of wet sand or something I'm just aching all over - I feel absolutely battered. Like my bones are all bruised and just....oh my head is absolutely killing. Urg it's just a feeling of dread - like what have I done?!! It's like I've been knocked out and I'm coming round - like I've hit a wall or something and I'm woozy and I'm upset and I feel grizzly - like a grizzly baby.
F: So are you in the same body as before?
A: No it's a different body.
F: Can you describe the body?
A: It's a baby's body. Oh God it's like I'm uurrgghh can't control it and it's like I'm in a big soup of wet sand and moving and trying to lift my arm or lift my leg and I can't ....I've got no control over myself. I just feel weighted down and it's like being in putty or wet sand or quicksand.
F: Have you just been born?
A: Yes and there's like a residual sense where it's slipping away from me every single second I'm trying to grab onto this thought and it's just going and going and I can't keep hold of this thing that I need I haven't got any control it's like slipping out of my grasp and I know I'm losing something and I can't do anything about it.
F: Ok the baby that you are is that the one that you are now in this life
A: Yes
F: So this is the 3rd seeding. So I want to move you forward to an important day in this life and I want you to describe what you see
A: I'm in like a dark wood and I'm going into a building or..... I don't know if I am in this life it feels like a different.........I'm a little girl but it doesn't feel like me...... I'm someone different. It's a girls body that I'm in but it's not me - it's a different me. Oh god I'm in this forest and I know.....I'm dreading it....I know that someone's going to have sex with me - an older guy and I really don't want it. But I know I've got to go and it's like some rite of passage and I'm terrified and I've got my hands clenched and I've got to go oh....it's horrible I've been traded and I've got to do something that I don't want to do and I'm doing it because I've been forced to do it. I've been either sold or given to this man as property and I know he's going to rape me when I go into this house and I don't want to go but I know I'm going to have to just get it over and done with and I'm young I'm pre-pubescent and I'm a young girl I'm probably like 10, 8, 9, 10. I don't know what's going to happen to me but I know something bad's going to happen to me and it's something sexual and I don't even really know what that is. I know that something's going to happen and it's going to be bad but I've just got to get on with it, I'm scared of the consequences if I don't do it.
F: Ok so do you know where you are on earth?
A: In Germany or Austria or somewhere like that
F: Do you get a feeling of time of which year it would be? Can you look at yourself and the way you're clothed?
A: Dress on hand made just like a woven dark fabric, rough it's really rough I've got very basic shoes on it's almost like we’re poor we’re really poor, I've got very little, chattel is the word that's comes to mind and I've become the property of this man.
F: Right ok why has this man bought you… or traded you?
A: Because I'm young and beautiful, I'm hard working and I'm good and I've been working really hard to try to please or help my family because they’ve got nothing. So it's almost like I'm going to be working for this guy, domestically, and I can do lots of jobs like cooking and milking the goats, make fires and I can do quite a few things. I'm quite grown up for my age and I’ve basically have been sold and I don’t know what for.
F: Ok so this man is he of standing?
A: He’s higher than us but that's not hard. My parents are just disconnected from me they know that they just can't keep me. I’m just talking about in terms of the resource that I have and I don't know what...they've swapped it for food or they've swapped me for something that's going to keep the rest of them alive somehow or maybe get them in a better state that’s all, Help them in some way and I know that I'm being traded but I just... I'm dutiful I suppose but I don't want it but I've got to go along with it I've got no choice here, I've just got to get on with it.
F: Ok so let me move you forward to when you’re actually win this man and I want you to tell me what’s happening?
A: He's got a really poor side to him, he's quite charming but he's nasty, he’s very smart, he’s damaged there's something really weird about him, There's something dark about him and now I'm absolutely terrified but I can't let on, I know that it’ll excite him if he sees that I’m scared.
F: Ok do you know what his name is?
A: It’s like Yurn or something - ur...yea this is not going to be easy.
F: So what's happening now?
A: It's really smoky and he's got a real cottagey type place and he’s appraising me like I'm a thing and he's asking me to take my clothes off so he can get a good look at me.
F: What is he doing just watching?
A: Watching touching squeezing prodding appraising judging commenting like a running commentary - touching my hair touching my breasts but I've hardly got any and it's like I'm fresh and he likes that but I'm a virgin.
F: So what does he do next - what's his intentions?
A: I'm going to be working for him and doing his cooking and just doing stuff, I'm going to be mainly kept at that place and just to run it he's got to go off and do some stuff. I have the feeling that he's had several of these domestic servants before and they've met with some sort of unpleasant ends. And I'm sort of getting this sort of creepy feeling I know something bad's going to happen to me but I can't seem to get out of it.
F: OK well let's move you forward, and let's find out, to the last day of your life there and tell me what you see.
A: {Crying} I'm not going to give him the satisfaction of letting him know that I’m scared - I'm really trying to keep control.
F: Ok what's he doing?
A: He's strangling me and he's raping me.
F: Ok it's alright you can come out of your body and watch this as an observer and then it won't disturb you - so tell me what you're seeing?
A: She's fighting him but with her spirit because her body's not strong enough, he can't help himself - there's something really wrong with him and she knows that. When he gets like that he's just........he's damaged and she's better than him and she knows she is. She's trying to not give him the satisfaction of being scared even though he's hurting her....he's raping her. He's got his hands round her throat and she's blacking out, he's been beating her, he was trying to get her to admit something and she just wouldn't...she just wouldn't - she wouldn't give him the satisfaction. He knows she's just not scared of him.... she stands up to him with her spirit in her eyes. He was living on the fear, it excited him, to the point where he would just be getting off on it and she refused to be scared of him even though he was really hurting her and he'd be beating her and then eventually raping her and strangling her. When she passed away she looked him in the eye and she wasn't scared of him and she refused to give in to the fear and that changed him. He saw something of himself then and this monster that he'd become and he realised almost like remorse which is something he'd never felt before. Because she stood up to him in her spirit he saw.....he almost came out of the trance that he'd been in and he saw that what he'd done was wrong. He wept afterwards and he realised that..... he's looking at his hands and he's crying and it's almost like he's come too and in that moment it's changed him.
F: So she’s healed him then?
A: Yes or she’s opened up something in him
F: So what caused him to be damaged in the first place?
A: He was abused, there was something horrible happened to him as a child, very very angry and that's that darkness around him, which is why he can’t ever get anybody to come close to him. That's why he has to buy people or force them or intimidate them into giving them these domestic servants - everything is a transaction for him. He's got nothing - no friends he just gets what he wants by brute force or by money and he can't get close to anybody. He gets frustrated and he has this idea that they're going to be this person for him that’s going to stop him being lonely. But of course the way he treated me was just... it drove us….I couldn't get close to him and I didn't want to get close to him… I didn’t want to be there. So he always loses his temper, he always lashes out, he always ends up in this pattern where he destroys this thing that he wanted, he’s in a pattern that he can't get out.
F: So he was abused and he got this darkness around him. Was it the dark energy that was actually blocking things from coming in or was it the other way round he was blocking people out?
A: The dark energy was...as he kept making these bad decisions almost the thing that he wanted was to be close but over the years that's become completely distorted into this horrible way of acting and it’s almost like it’s taken over him, he keeps doing the wrong thing and it keeps making it worse and worse and he’d lost sight of this, and he just became increasingly disturbed and just increasingly dark and psychotic. But in that moment when I died looking him in the eye and just giving him my full attention even as I was dying he... nobody would ever look at him somehow. No one ever wants to connect with him and I connected with him and it broke something up in him again. He realised and he saw me for who I was rather than for what he could get out of me…. and it's changed him
A: I know that I had mental strength to carry me through a very difficult situation I was very wilful but I was also very dutiful and I felt obligated to do what I did and I knew it was going to end badly but I did my best and I had a really strong spirit and that carried me through. All the beatings and the horrible things that he did....that wasn't the first rape there was many of them but I put up with them and I endured them cos I knew that I was better than him and there was something inside of myself that was strong and he couldn't break it. I had a place inside of myself that he couldn't touch…. I was really smart and resourceful and really sort of canny and grown-up... but I went into a horrible situation knowing at some level what was coming. But I also spent some time reassuring my parents that everything was going to be fine... I didn't want them to worry I knew that there in a really difficult situation... And it was painful for them to do what they did... but I don't know if there was another big family or what because...almost... I volunteered actually to go.
F: So you learnt a lot from it….. about your strength?
A: And there was something even at the moment of death in a horrible painful way There’s some part of you that remains intact and nothing can touch and that's a power inside and I had lots of it in that lifetime .. even though physically I had no resources or strength I had a strength of spirit and I knew I was better than him and even when he murdered me. I knew that look at him somehow it woke him up and he couldn't….he was fighting fighting fighting and then I didn't offer any resistance somehow because there was something inside me that was strong….
F: So how long were you with him ...do you know what year you were when you died?
A: A few years……. I started to come into puberty and I was trying to hide it from him...
F: Right ok so you were about 12 when you died?
A: Yeah I was really good I was a really good little worker and I brought a lot of love into that household actually but he used to go away a lot but when he got like that he just used to be like a monster. And I used to try and get a reaction from me And in the end he just beat me and rape me to death because he Was trying to provoke me somehow ...He was trying to get a reaction from me
F: So did you have an agreement with this man before you incarnated into the body?
A: Yes.
F: What was that - what was the purpose of it?
A: He wanted to explore this really dark nature and he was at risk of being lost in that and I made an agreement with him before I went in that I would rescue him that I would oust him out. So I would let him be the monster but I would ...there’s a part of me that was like a torch inside me and he would go out into the darkness and I would hold this light that he could get back to.
F: So you feel that you accomplished that?
A: Yeah
F: And that everything was good?
A: It cracked him open ...there was something in the way that I looked at him as I was dying ...I saw his eyes change, I saw him just almost wake up out this trance and he just realised what he’d done and he felt something…. For the first time after I died he actually felt remorseful and he wept
F: So is this man a soul mate of yours?
A: Maybe - I don't know I don’t feel a connection, more like an obligation, we agreed to do this lesson but it’s not the most…. I don’t feel significantly drawn
Sharing information from the Higher Self
A: You're spending your conscious time in this brain state which is locked down.... it's fight or flight but that's not all there is. You’ve got a higher purpose and you've got an important role to live in this time here. When you're not in body and you're asleep you are communicating on other levels through the consciousness is not fully contained within the body - you can come out of body, you can travel...you can go to other places...bridge another reality field and dimensions.
F: Ok so where does the consciousness go to?
A: It can go all the way back to source and have a direct line. But sometimes it's just...there's drama...there's always drama...out in the densities.
F: So why does she sleep sometimes and not other times?
A: There's too much mental chatter and she's sensitive...there's a lot of noise just beyond... the auditory spectrum of humans that's... she's not in the body so it's hard to switch it off and allow the body to relax when part of the identity is not in the body. And that part doesn't know sleep it's always just around so...
F: Ok so that will stop and she will be regularised with the sleep once she gets back in to the body and accepts that.
A: She will get to it yes.
F: We wanted to know about energy hooks, if anybody has put any energy hooks into her body?
A: Yea they're all around my lower 3 chakras.
F: Ok where was that connected to?
A: There's a dark...there are dark dimensions that have fallen...where those beings are not able to live from the living light source of God source and they drain energy from many many many plants and humans and creatures and beings...everything is energy and planet earth has been harnessed for its quantum and many forms of life are tethered in.
F: So these beings that are dark - have they a name?
A: There's lots of them, they have their own councils in this area of the universe it's a sizeable chunk along the milky way area in 3d space that has fallen and there are many interferences ....zetas and lots of darker beings - not all of those races but big portions of them that have fallen and they can't sustain themselves.
F: So they don't have energy from source but they've come from source haven't they?
A: Yes everything is an algorithm in the source, the universe has its own structure and laws, so if you continue to exercise your free will against the natural laws of manifestation you progressively damage and deplete your energetic template so as you incarnate again and again you can hold and transmit less and less light which means that eventually if you continue to fall you can't uncarnate any more and that energetic template will fragment. But there are sophisticated beings and whole universes populated by various groups that feed from other living sources and that limits the capacity of those sources to go through their own ascension cycles and that's what's happened on this planet. And this planet is moving towards her own ascension where it'll come to her next sphere of experience and she has been impeded many times by these fallen races which is why even though the earth is a tiny part of creation she's also very important.
F: So will she manage to get through to the next level?
A: She's already started to do it
F: Ok and what's going to happen to these beings - will they get trapped?
A: They're already trapped in the manifestation of their own thought forms in a falling multiverse or universe but everything goes home and so some beings are choosing the life of ascension, they're choosing to ascend and some are being hosted by other life forms that are helping rehabilitate their energetic templates and some are choosing the path of fall because anything is permissible within the mind of God source. God source does not judge, it loves all parts of itself but that is one of the many infinite possibilities of manifestation is that you have beings that chose to explore the ? and they are met with the consequences of the choices that they make. Nothing is ever lost within the mind of God Source. Everything and everybody goes home - it's just the way in which we travel back to source determines by our free will choices. Those beings could of been incredibly complex...long lived multi-faceted beings but they might be choosing the ? and most of them have completely forgotten where they came from. And they see creation as something to be conquered and dominated and abused. It's not a procreative relationship, it's an abusive relationship and they will be met by the consequences of their own actions and that is their business.
F: So how much longer has humanity got to deal with these beings?
A: We are already moving into the Ascension potential, there's been a huge amount of work done from outside the consciousness of humans on planet Earth to assist. Earth is extremely precious and she's a bridge to many other places, she's very significant in this area of the multiverse. And she's loved, she's very very old and she is a living being that volunteered to be a teacher and to let these beings explore all sides of their nature. They will be around forever in the mind of God source because nothing is ever forgotten..... time doesn't apply but humans aren't always going to have to deal with these other humans, other beings, other forms.
F: So humans how long have they got with these beings - is there any kind of time scale because they're doing a lot of damage.
A: There's less than 900 years left on this planet as we will know it in this form. There is a huge awakening of consciousness which will radically shift how we even perceive ourselves on the planet and as the consciousness changes so does the manifest form. There are various probabilities and reality fields through which Earth will shift, this area of the Universe is falling and we're being hosted out by the various profuse numbers of Councils and beings and races that exist beyond these dimensions. So part of Earth will remain as an energetic memory - Earth is also shifting and she's already beginning to shift. This is the 3rd seeding of humans on this planet and it will be the last seeding in this reality field.
F: Ok so when you say 'seeding' what is actually being seeded, is that the energy that Abigail was involved with?
A: The whole angelic human was seeded here to be protectors of this corner of the cosmos and that mission has succeeded and failed and succeeded and failed and now it's coming to the point where Earth needs to move - she's going through her next cycle and there are inbuilt laws of manifestation and they go in cycles, cosmic cycles, so she's moving and you're either going or you’re not this time. But there's nothing to fear because everyone goes home and underneath all this is always love.
F: So it's my understanding that we're on the right time line and we are actually going through that but I was trying to get some kind of time scale as to how long we've got to put up with the dark energies and the energy hooks before we move above them - in linear time is possible to get an idea?
A: Depends what probability you're on and where that part of your manifest identity is going, but in order to shift into these higher levels of consciousness those things have to be dissolved and they have to be reconciled. The change in consciousness means that some of these things will demanifest because they can't manifest in some of these other dimensions because they are of a higher frequency.
F: So as we move up they will disappear out of our lives.
A: That takes a lot of conscious work but we are moving and there are bigger forces, planetary forces, rebirthing to this planet through this planet but as she's moving we are all moving with her - and if we're not it's because we're choosing the paths to stay behind in this old Earth which is an echo of the memory of this Earth which again has a very limited amount of quantum left which will be left to those beings that are choosing to harvest that and they will have to live on that very finite amount of energy until they can't do that anymore.
F: Ok so you say that Earth is a bridge, do you mean it's a Portal or a bridge?
A: There are portals all over this planet.
F: But where is it a bridge to?
A: Within the cosmos there are densities and dimensions and there are cycles of expansion and growth and Earth is moving in consciousness and in materiality and she will continue to do so for some time.
I asked the Higher Self why Abigail was shown those 2 lives
To show polarity - to show the huge gulf between ….But also the immediate Space between the worst and the highest. You can be part of God Source and come out into creation and come back through ascension and then choose willingly to go back out into creation to explore that polarity again to demonstrate the utter conviction and belief in the love that God source is but simultaneous to that she came and experienced the worst of humanity… like being brutalised and raped and violated. The most horrible sort of aspects of what the human can be you know...this... trying to break the will of a child and violating and hurting that child. It’s like the worst…. You know you’re abusing God's creation in the most horrible way …. You know it’s all there.
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